2015 is gonna end less than a few hours and im hella excited to enter 2016, just because 2015 wasnt the best but it was pretty sick but god i'm just excited to accomplish things in 2016! its gonna be a great year, and i can feel it. sure, 2015 has taught me a lot, just like any other year. made new friends, gain new experiences, yada yada yada, the usual stuff ya know. but the highlight of my 2015 has be me going to tahfiz, it definitely was a goddamn experience, the sweet and the bitter, i'll miss it all. some days i wish i was back there, with my friends, beridabah kpd yang Maha Esa, but other days i am glad im here, is that so terrible of me?

i used to care what people think about me, a lot. and it affected me, a lot too. it affected the way i dress, the way i talked, the way i eat, the way i see things. but this year, i still cared, and it still affected me, but in a positive way. me caring, so that i can change, in a positive way, a way that i would still love myself, and be comfortable with who i am. other people's opinions are still taken under consideration, no matter how awful and despicable it was. i still want to be a better me, so the lemon i got, i made some lemonades.

its funny how day by day, it feels like nothing has actually changed but at the end of it, when you look back, everything did actually changed, a lot. the old friends you thought you would be sharing every minute with, the love of your life you thought you were gonna spend the rest of you life with, the place, where you thought you might never leave, the memories, you thought you can never let it go, and the people you thought you might never meet. its crazy how life works, and how He does it, just perfect, purely and beautifully magnificent. no matter how fucked up it got, how depressing it was, how i thought i might never survived the year, but i did, and i loved, i really do, every little bits of it. if i was given the chance to relive it, i might.  2015 was incredible, just like any other year, and just like that, history has been made, thank you Allah for letting me live to go through all these wonderful moments. I hope i am given more chances to experience greater things in life.

here's to 2016, im ready.