a little life update; completed my last final project for this semester, my last semester as a foundation student, one more report to be submitted then im officially done.
i cant believe it has been almost a year since my i've gotten into Uni.
time does flies so fast when you're having fun, i have to admit, as stressful as it was,
foundation year was so much fun for me, a little less adventures than i expected but there were still little adventures, but will do so much more in the future, thats for sure
to be honest, there was a part of me that didnt even want to continue my degree,
probably because i already have a secure position in my parent's company,
but it took me a little more time, and convincing by my friends that i need to continue my study,
just to be safe you know, also,
i convinced myself that this is the only escape i'll ever get from the reality

also, gonna start working, permanently, soon, probably next week, but i am so not ready for this.
for goodness sake, im just 19, i still have a lot of fun living to do,
i dont wanna be stuck in the office all day, i want to go out with my friends,
i wanna go out on dates, i wanna do spontaneous road trips with my friends,
but i guess, thats never gonna happen, that will probably never be my life,
im doing this for my family, nothing else, no one else, not even for myself
well there goes my chances of studying abroad, goodbye Australia :(
i know good things will come out of this, everything happens for a reason kan,
Allah did not put something somewhere for no reason, He knows whats best kan

but nevertheless, starting degree on the 19 of September insyaAllah, please pray for the best
but the thing is, i'll be taking weekend classes because i gotta work on weekdays,
thats a fully packed schedule for me
i can do this, i know i can, a little out of my comfort zone, thats a good thing, i hope so,
weekend classes meaning i wont be seeing any of my previous classmates, my friends, fucking sad!!
this one breaks my heart, not because of my soon to be busy days but
im gonna miss them so badly, you know how i am the type of person who holds on things kan
i hold on to memories, a very nostalgic person you must say.
so, its kinda hard to let go of this one, the people ive been spending my foundation days, since day 1
okay, dont wanna go into deep because i'll save that one for when im OFFICIALLY done with foundation huhu
its probably gonna be a very cheesy post for sure lmao
so as for right now, spending my days at home, doing house chores, watching online movies,
basically just being lifeless at home, and im using these days wisely for im never gonna have these
kind of days in a very long time, you can bet in that.

i hope no matter where you go, wherever you are, whoever you meet with, please be kind
because you will never know what they are going through, please spread positivity
please be as gentle as you can, as thoughtful as you can,
i hope Allah grants you all the happiness you deserves, i hope Allah grants all your duas and wishes
i hope you are healthier and happier than you were yesterday,
until next time my friends