i think im still in my self-discovery mode. sure, i know myself better than before but there is still so much to figure out. probably i've figured out only about 1/10 of myself, the rest is still, in progress.
i used to think that by 20 years old, i would at least have a few things planned out, but im gonna be 20 next year and i still wake up at 10am, eat on my bed and watch kdramas & movies all day long,
definitely i have a lot of catching up to do huh.
i still have no idea what i wanna do for a living, i dont even know what im passionate about, i dont even have an actual image of what i'll do in the future, is that worrisome? haih
but you know what, screw that, you do you. you still have nothing figured out? thats okay!
things take time, you cant expect success over night, you cant expect a human being to figure everything out in a small period of their life. i bet out parents dont even have everything figured out too! they're learning everyday, as do we. once you've figured out how to deal with things, new challenges pops up and then you gotta try to figure out that one pulak, the cycle goes on forever.
everyday is a learning process kan, everyday you learn new things.
if you've got everything figured out now, then what is there left for the future? boring la macam tu kan?
i was inspired to do this post from the movie moana, i kinda can relate to her self discovery journey, eventhough at the end she has everything figured out, lets just skip that part okay,
the thing is, we're definitely gonna have to go through a great deal of hardships, pain & sufferings in this self-discovering journey, its gonna hurt, its gonna leave you crying, bleeding, emotionally & spiritually bruised, but that is life, and the beauty of it is that nothing last forever, even those pain and hardships. okay tetiba i get this sudden of happy tingling feeling down my spine while writing this hehe
i have a long way to go, we, have a long way to go, dont worry about it, you still have time. slowly, dont push yourself too hard. youre the one who's doing all the work, worry less about the negative things people have to say, you're the one who's gonna decide, you're the one who cries their eyes out, you're the one who had youre own back when no one else did, youre the one who pulled yourself up when you were pushed down, so dont let those people decide anything for you (unless if they're you're parents then, entah lah) (lol kidding) (but seriously la)
but i also did this post sebab nak sedapkan hati sendiri, because god dammit my life is a mess and i have no clue what im doing but im living in the moment! until next my friends hehe