today was much more frustrating than the other days. cause today unexpected things happened. i know life is like that. but, hrmm. no word to describe. sorry, anyway. today was kinda awful. cause i told ehem about me liking Mr.H.A. which me and effah create a name fr him 'vanilla'. okay, so i told ehem, and ehem went and say to the class does anybody one to know who najwa likes? fucked up, and because of him too. three other guys find out. hell yeah, i was mad. so fucking mad okay. and recess time. he was hanging out with vanilla. and he was smiling smiling. if he did that. it would make people suspicious. i hate that, i told him cause maybe he was dependable and cause he was kinda close to vanilla. i thought i could count on him. but he disappointed me. it was commotion between the guys. and all because of ehem. ugh, so fucking angry to him right now.
actually, i've wrote a post before this. but i didn't saved it. so, i just gotta start a new one cause i restart my laptop and as i said, i forgot to saved it. but i dont mind, cause i love typing. writing too, but that just makes my hand bellow. typing is more fun to me. today, i woke up late fr my choral speaking rehearsal. i was supposed to be at school at 8.30am right? but i actually woke up at 8.17am. i woke up off bed, took my towel and went straight to the toilet. so, i was ready by 8.30am. so i rushed downstairs and said to my father. we better get going now, im so late. so, i when outside to whore my shoes and stuff. but he was still sitting on the couch in front of the television. and he said, 1 minute please. i was frustrated. i'm running late and he's just relaxing there. but i cant argue. he's my father and it was kinda my fault cause i woke up late remember?
so basically i arrived at school around 8.45am. luckily the teacher was not there. cause she was also teaching netball fr their upcoming competition. i saw the students that are in the team. they were getting darker. and they were getting burned. hrm, pity pity. haha, as fr us. we practiced in the hall. which nobody was using it. just a couple of class fr gym class. they were playing with gymnastic stuff. i saw them playing, it looked so fun. so, tomorrow i still have rehearsal at 8.30am. i dont mind, cause i'm really committed to this. i wanna win this. fr my school, fr my parents and fr myself. i wanna show them that i got what it takes. i too can be the best among the best.
okay, right now. i'm having this kinda feeling, you know. that kinda feeling when your in love. the previous guy i liked was in the same class. so i could see him every day, every time. but this time, he was in another class. it's so hard to see him sometimes. i'm so eager to meet him everyday. i wished that i had a real conversation with him. face to face. wouldn't that would be nice. so, gtg. waking up early tomorrow fr rehearsal~