oh my god i miss blogging i miss letting out everything to writing. It has been a hectic journey i gotta admit, it all started a few weeks before raya and up until now. Raya, pmr trials, pmr and so much more in the process that i cant even remember right now. since we're on school holidays right now im part time working with my parents who owns a catering company, they said theyd paid but, hey, promises were meant to be broken i guess *shrugs i have so much on mind right now that i dont even know where to start, what to say, or how to say. So much running thru my mind.
Everything isnt really doing great now but i hv to admit 2012 has been great. surely it will be missed but the only thing that ruined it, was my pmr results sigh... im so disappointed in myself, i know i could have done better. I dont know whether my parents were disappointed or theyre satisfied, they said it was okay and they even tried cheering me up but God knows how they truly feel deep down. But now ive learned, luckily there's still spm. Ive promise myself to work my ass off this time, seriously though. I dont wanna mess up my future, ive had it all planned out. I dont wanna be someone i dont wanna be.
Theres just too much to say but i just dont know how to put it in words. Lately ive been a novel addict, i could finish up a 600pg novel in just a day. Thats how addicted i am. Maybe just to get my mind of things, to run away from reality. Life is pretty screwed up right now. i dont even know where to start to clean up the mess. cant wait to start 2013, a new school, a new chapter in life, and maybe a new love haha but not really gonna hope for any love cause i practically gotta focus for spm. At least at a new school i would pay more attention in class since i wouldnt know any of my classmates
Pretty scared but im excited to start a new life here. To leave away all the misery and pain behind. Those hurtful past that keeps haunting me. But of course i'll miss my friends terribly, i mean who wouldnt. But theres really nothing i could do. and hopefully they'll understand, theyre trying right now and sooner or later they will fully. oh gosh and now im talking nonsense ergh this is because of the sleepiness but i really wanted to update my blog, its been like forever ok. i guess i should get some rest now, nighty night