its not that i didnt want to blog, its just that i suck at converting my feelings into words. i just dont really know how to express em specifically. its so weird how people have all these feelings bottled up, just waiting to be told, to be let out but once they are actually given the chance, they become stiff, clueless and speechless. is that how it'll always be? is that how its suppose to be? there will be a day when all the things we want to say, will be said, smoothly, without hesitation
its so weird how i tend to get so emotionally and shit when at night, i guess it does happen to a lot of people huh? im so clueless with my life right now, i know what i want but not specifically, i mean i want a job which can help people but i dont know what kind of job that does that but to think of if, it doesnt requires any great skills or talents when it comes to helping, you just gotta have a good heart and be sincere right? the world is so much more complicated now, so many competition, so many things to work for just to survive a day.
oh here we go again, me being so philososhit hahahaha ok that was funny anyway back to my point, life? huh what a small and short word but brings this crazy excessive thoughts to my head, its like everything is shooting towards me, every single thing ive learned these past 16 years of my life its so weird how i actually care about all these cause usually i dont well i do but i dont usually tell people let alone type/write about it cause like i said, i srsly dont know how to express my feelings, converting em into words are bloody hard man i'd rather sleep and rant hahahaha
well i guess tonight its time i actually tell people about this, wow it does feels good huu