so i told myself i would update my blog on the last day of 2013 well, here we are. how fast time flies, i felt just like yesterday we were entering 2013 and now we are about to indulgent on another journey for 2014. 2013, wow oh wow. how 2013 has changed a big fraction of my life. how it changed my perspective towards people, towards my surroundings. i can definitely say a lot has happened throughout the year, had my ups & of course my downs. but like ive always believed, everything happens for a reason. i may not know it now but someday it will reveal itself. here i am, writing a post on how great & bitter 2013 was. reminiscing the year. recalling back the memories, the good & the bad. i might have had great memories made rather than the painful one but i cant avoid myself from remembering the bitter memories. that changed me somehow, someway. i learned a lot, i learned that people are not what they seem, i learned that life is a pain in the ass, i learned that Allah will always, always be there for you, i learned that, no matter how much u care and love that person, u will eventually move on, i learned that nothing last forever, even the good things.
and honestly, this year, ive been a lot more positive than ive ever been, a lot more kinder and patience that i was before. i was shocked myself, i do noticed all these positive changes ive made, people may have not noticed it, especially my family, but i am confident that ive changed, a good one hopefully. but there will always be that dark side of me, that i am not yet ready to reveal. a dark side of me with thoughts that i myself was afraid of them
nevertheless, 2013 was still a great year. heartbreaks & disappointments are inseparable in life, so instead of avoiding them i should just embrace them and hope for it to turn those storms into rainbows. oh wow i sound very cheesy here, excuse me for my lack of vocabulary & for my very formal post cause its been awhile since ive wrote down my feelings. its been a while ive own a diary, i usually just express my feelings to something that would comprehend which are people, not diarys, or blogs. but nevertheless, it still find its way to get into me. how writing gives me this kind of satisfaction, how it wont disagree with me, how it just writes down what i want, without arguing.
back to my main topic tonight please, 2013. its pretty much indescribable oh how amazing it was, ive encountered so many amazing people, ive made friends with people i never knew i could. went on new adventures, did things i never knew i could & definitely fall in love as hard as i possibly could. being heartbroken was a big issue to me this year, never have i had my heartbroken this painful. but i took it as a lesson, it was excruciating, but eventually i got over it. i found myself now stronger than ever. do know this, i am currently writing this post on the 31st dec 2013 but it might get published on the 1st jan 2014 since i take very long to write. its like i have all these things to say, all these opinions to be spoken out, all these thoughts longing to be freed from my head, but somehow, i just cant seem to put it in words, to put it in a sentence and make a story out of it.
i always seem to be lost at words, funny how when it comes to silly random things, i could just mutter out unconsciously, but when im sitting here, really focus on what to right, everything becomes a blur, everything starts to fade out, pitch black. weird huh? i still havent state my point here, which is to talk about 2013 & how 2014 would be looked forward too. 2013, was great, just, great. despite all the downs, but i had my ups. i was surrounded but great people, did great things i never knew i could & achieved quite a few things. so here's to another great year. to the spm i'll be facing in the 2014, to the disappointments i may bump into, to the heartbreaks i might fall into, here's to another great year. no matter what happened in 2013, it was still a great year. i couldnt be more blessed