ive come to realize that i love blogging, a lot.

school has just started yesterday & for sure i wasnt prepared to handle any of it. to handle being an adult. i am not ready for those big responsibilities. i am very excited for college but at the same time i dont wanna grow up, i dont wanna deal with people i dont wanna deal, i dont wanna do things i hate just to earn money so that i could survive in this world. i am scared for what the future holds me, and i know im not the only one. what if i screwed up? one wrong step & i could ruin everything, one small mistakes could change everything. these past few months ive been feeling a little bit more lonely and sad than usual. i gotta admit, i am surrounded but great, great people but i still feel lonely. i believe that is not right, something is definitely wrong here.

one thing im excited for is to get out of this house. it doesnt mean i dont love my family but i am just so excited for the freedom, for all those time for myself. right now i feel like my thoughts & opinions are being sealed tight, theres no freedom in speech. feeling trapped in this world. these pointless thoughts of mine will never see an end, that i can assure you. till we meet again