life right now is currently quiet hectic and confusing but surprisingly im enjoying myself. been busy with the preparations for the annual sports day, since its my last year, im putting out everything ive got. its stressing me out on how much work i gotta get done in a short time but its fun ya know. plus, im also in the midst of stressing over my addmaths' project work. i swear to god this one is making me want to pull my hair out. it seems easy but...i dont know. my senior year has always been somethings i have looked forward too for a very long time. im finally leaving this pit hole but i get emotional every time i think about it, i know, i confuse myself too sometimes. im gonna miss my friends the most, im gonna miss our memories, im gonna miss our fun times, our moments. ya know, all those crazy shits we do and did. oh god i cant even right now, im gonna start crying

like the other day, i was going through my facebook. scrolling through the timeline, looking back at the photos. despite the amount of cringe i have made looking back at it, i was glad i kept the photos. it made me look back, made me miss everything, made me realize how far i have come since then, made me smiled and cried. and i cried like there was no tomorrow, i cried so hard that my eyes was fucking swollen the next day. i miss my friends, i miss everything back then. its not like i am not enjoying what i have right now but im just saying that it would be pretty nice to go back to the good old days.

why do i have to be so emotional, i make myself laugh sometimes, of how idiotic i am, how sensitive i am, i dont even know. you know when, hearing certain songs or seeing certain things and it just reminds you of certain memories, yeap, i have experienced those moments way too much it just doesnt make any sense anymore. everything reminds me of everything. no matter what i have been through as a student, as a daughter, as a human, i still smile every time i look back. it has made what i am today, i have learned, i have became more mature and wiser from it. we're humans and we are always gonna make mistakes, its either you learn from it or repeat it. not only i learned from my mistakes, but also the people around me. sometimes i am glad i make mistakes, i am glad i am not perfect. ok, before i get anymore deep and cheesy, i'll stop here.