one thing i suck at is time management. especially when it comes to balancing between the play and the work. i would spend most of my time doing unimportant things, things that doesnt even need to be done. maybe this is just me you know, i could actually balance well but i just wouldnt. i juggle time round like its a small matter, like its something i can obtained back once lost. i myself dont even understand me, i dont understand why couldnt i just ignore all the distractions and just focus. i bet a lot of people are experiencing the same thing as me, but they cover it up pretty well, unlike me. looking around, especially at my friends, they're doing pretty good with their life. setting straight their priorities, i do too but i just dont take the actions in my hand. i am so tired with the way i live but i refuse to change the way i live, i refuse to change myself. i want too but i dont know, am i lacking of motivation? or is it just me, so lazy & stubborn?

for these pasty few days, ramadhan has emerge and greet us gracefully. and i dont have the strength to actually study during the day, so i manage my evenings by taking naps and proceed to studying during the night but as usual, it was a failure. i still end up sleeping right after tuition which ends at 10pm. spm trial is less than 6 weeks away and here i am, still blogging about how stressed out with the way i my handle time