currently sitting for my spm trial and its seriously stressing me out, not that im not studying or its hard or anything (but its hard but) its bcs how people expect so much from me & from us science students. just because we're in the science stream doesnt mean we're geniuses. well maybe all of them are except for me, heh. but my point here is, isnt studying and gaining knowledge is for the sake of gaining knowledge and learning new things. not being labeled and placed into a grouo of people based on results on a piece of paper. maybe im saying all these bcs right now im too lazy but maybe its also because its also true. today's society is full of peer pressure especially from the elders like oh my god. they expect to be perfect from every aspect. they expect us to be nice, pretty yet intellegent, what the hell. 

im so tired & of all these tbh im tired of hearing what people have to say, what people talk about me, what people want me to be, what people expect from me. last time i checked this is my life, in the ine who is doing all the work, for my own goodness. am not taking anyone's time or energy.