i've always been loud, and the kind of person who just cant hide my emotions, can never hide how i feel. and because of that i've became someone who lives in the moment. at that precise moment, if i wanna do it, there's a big possibility i would go for it, what ever happens afterwards, i'll be okay with it, good or bad, it was an experience and i'll learn from it. i would probably be more regretful if i didnt go for it. sometimes i get scared too, sometimes i also question my actions but not all the time, because mostly, i dont think much lol thats kinda bad but i love it! you will never know what might happen, and that is just so exciting for me.
i am never scare to show how i feel, if i am angry, i'll tell them, if im sad, i'll show it and if i am in love, i'll probably tell you because that is just how i work. i am scared if at that moment, i back away, i dont tell how i feel, so i might never in the future. i dont wanna miss a chance, i dont want to regret in the future. i might never have that opportunity ever again.
being the way that i am, it has its good side and bad side. the bad side is, people take you for granted, people think i am vulnerable and an easy target. people look at me as if i am that cheap. but really though, aint nobody ever been stuck with me so i guess i am not that easy as people thought i am?
and the good side is? i dont really have regrets, i gain a lot of experience, i made and will make new friends, and i dont miss an opportunity, well, sometimes i do, when i get really cold feet but it rarely happens. dont get me wrong, even with all these, i am still a shy & timid little girl struggling with speaking publicly but at the same time, i am just not afraid.
if i like you, i am not afraid to make the first move because i dont want to miss my chance, if it turned out well, then its just my luck. but if turned out not so well, no regrets, i move on, and i'll be fine. life is way too short to be scared of everything, to look at everything negatively, to calculate every outcome, to only live in your comfort zone. where's the fun in that?

its the third of Ramadhan! happy fasting everyone!! this year's Ramadhan's gon be different, i dont know how or why but i can just feel it. and finals is next week but here i am, blogging lol but eventually everything will be fine in the end, dont you worry too much.