i finally have the time & motivation to update my blog. ive been lacking with motivation these past few months, ever since i was done with my foundation.
had few ideas on what to blog about, noted it in my phone, but those are not going on today's posts, that'll be on another time okay.
stayed at home for weeks, went to the office once in a while but nothing too serious for me to handle, accompanied my mum to few appointments & events but nothing big.
and so i realized that i seriously cant stay at home, i cant stay still for too long, bores me to death tbh
i might lose most of my already minimal motivation. i even had a hard time trying to pick myself up to shower and eat, let alone to blog. now i do realize how hard it is to get up & find the motivation,
the urge, that little push, to do something. different people have different ways & ideas to motivate themselves. few might gain some from watching other people, i am one of the few.
money can also be a very effective tool to push someone out off bed every morning, for most of us, we do it for the people we love, the idea of them being happy is what keeps us driven to our limits,
the point is, everyone struggles different, everyone have their own way to make sure they stay awake, they stay up & motivated

well, thats enough about motivation and those boring life philosophies for now,
a little life update; my weekend classes have finally begun, i honestly dont know how to feel about it. im having mixed feelings, happy & excited because i finally have a reason to get out of the house. also i get to meet new people, explore new places and i love that!
but also im missing my friends, i miss my lecturers, i miss my old faculty, i miss the campus, i miss driving to class every morning despite the extremely bad traffic, i miss seeing lotsa cute guys on campus
i miss everything about before. but there's really nothing i can do to change my parents' minds
im doing this just for their sake, nothing else tbh.
i think change is inevitable. its always gonna happen, good or bad, i just need to embrace it & make the best out of it.
aiceh, thats just me trying to ease crazy feelings & thoughts im getting. ive also started working, permanently-ish(???) idk lah but thats something i didnt expect i would be doing at the age of 19 lol way too early la
envious of the people i see online, living their dreams, studying abroad, hanging out with their friends
going on roadtrips and adventures with them, travelling the world, haih
and im here, stuck in the same city, with the same unfulfilled dreams and ambitions....
that i soon will achieve someway, somehow & insyaAllah someday! #prayfornajwa okay, pls?
but until next time my friends, probably the next time wont be as boring & uninteresting as today's post was. toodles