hey, tonight is a school night. i'm so bored. my mum said that she wants to take my laptop away. only on weekends i can have it back. maaannn, that's not fair. it's not like she bought it. my uncle bought it okay. and i deserved it. it's a gift for my 5A in upsr. eventhough it's small. but i'm grateful to be getting it. maybe my mum have her reason to take my laptop. but still, i want it to always accompany me anytime. when i get bored. i'll on my laptop. usually i'll use it at night cause day time are time to be with family. isn't that good enough. this is all caused of my brother. he wanted to play online games on my laptop. i didn't even said no, but i also didn't said yes. so he complained to my mother. then he said 'kak long, mummy's gonna take your laptop'

and i said 'so you told mummy about me not giving the laptop to you right?' but he kept denying it. but i know he did. so hate him, why should i give him. look what he did. just some small matter want to enlarge it. so pathetic. his so desperate so he did what he did. hrm, well. it's past 11 o'clock. i gotta get to sleep. but my post is too short. what to write some more. oh ya, i've kinda like this guy. i met him on facebook. his really kind. but usually i start the conversation. and that's not good. i wanted to ask for his phone number. but, it's the guy that should make the first move. not the girls. so confused. my friend said that i should just make the first move.

she said, take risks. but i'm so scared. i'm just scared that. behind that smile. he feels pathetic towards me. like i'm some desperate girl. but i'm not. i really liked him. oh, i feel like just telling him of how i feel. but im embarrassed. what if he dont like me. i'll just humiliate myself then. ugh, so confused right now. should i go for it. or not. okay, want to wash my body. feels so uncomfortable~