it hurts so bad that i just feel like laughing every time i think about it. Its okay for him cause at least he found a replacement but for me, he left me all alone, to suffer, to bear the consequences. i guess i deserved this, i was the idiot who felt for him, i was that idiot who actually pushed aside other people just for him. But to him i guess im just another person whom he had fun with, he's done so he moved on hahaha wow that fast huh bloody bastard. lucky for him he doesnt have to go thru what im going thru, he still will receive good morning and goodnight wishes, he will still have reasons to smile, he will still have someone to accompany him on lonely nights, someone who'll have his back. While im left with nothing, he took away everything and maybe a little piece of my heart too with him.
why do feelings even exist in the first place or better yet why cant we experience love when its the right time i mean why cant we just fall in love with the person we were meant to be with forever instead of going thru all these bullshits in between. i have to study for chemistry tomorrow and here i am ranting, being depress and shit on my blog while there are starving kids in africa and killings in afghanistan oh god najwa cheer up haih. But as i always believed and will always believe, everything happens for a reason. Allah know whats He's doing. Its either a lesson or a blessing, and this one i suppose is both. He has better plans for me, i know that for sure.
he's a jerk and a douchebag anyway hahaha douchebag tak douchebag, i felt for him so who cares. i dont regret knowing him and getting to know him better. A quote from the internet once said, never regret something that used to make you happy. At some point im gonna look back and smile and be glad that it did happen