July 30, 2016

feel things

"would you rather choose someone who makes you feel things but treats you decently or someone who treats you right but doesnt makes you feel things"

so few weeks ago i went around asking a bunch of people this question and the answers were, eye opening, all of them. some of them said to choose the one who makes you feel things because whats the point of being in a relationship with someone you dont have any feelings for eventhough they're treating you right, it'll be just based off sympathy gitu.
some even said to choose the one who treats you right because feelings can come & go. the person is treating you right, you might not feel anything now but sooner or later, the feels might come because of the other person's efforts & dedication gitu. because at least we know the other person has feelings for us rather than leaning against them just purely from your own feelings, entah entah the other person doesnt even like you. entah entah you dont even make them feel things like the way they are making you feel things, you get me here.

for me personally, i would choose someone who does both. someone who treats me right AND makes me feel things because if his the right guy, definitely it goes both way kan.
why hope just base on one thing?
it might be hard but once you find the right person, i bet it'll be worth the wait kan. if they were easy to get, mesti easy to go too kan.
please girls, dont even settle for anything less, if he aint treating you right, replying your text 12 hours later, too damn shy to tell his friends about you, leave his fucking ass okay, you dont deserve to be treated like that. same goes to the guys out there, if the girl you've been talking to aint treating u right, just using you to get things or just someone to hang with, she doesnt deserve you and your efforts.

its been so long since i've cried for a guy, the last time was when i was 16 and now im 19. i hate crying for them cause damn well they dont deserve to be cried for, they dont deserve these emotions &; feelings.
its been so long since i've felt this way about a guy, he made me happy, me made me smile all day long, he made me feel all sort of things inside of me, oh god. i fall so easily, if he treats me right la, and he did, at first. i dont know what went wrong, maybe i was at fault all along kan, for actually falling & believing haha

but no matter what happens, i will always love, love. i love seeing couples being in love, married or unmarried. that also includes family love okay. like, children yang suka buat surprises for their parents, or parents who are so close to their children and all that la
it just gives me hope, it gives me this feeling of peace tau.
it must be so great to be on someone's mind all day, everyday. having someone to lift you up when you're down, having someone to tell all the things that goes into your head, the things you worry about. friendship love & family love feels totally different from love, love ya know. it's just, different, never compare it la

every time i get my heart broken, i tell myself to stay away from boys and love and relationship semua ni but i cant, no matter how hard i try, i'm stuck to it, harder than magnet.
so i just have to embrace it, take it as a lesson in life. the sweet, sour, bitter, semua perisa lah, in life ni. if it was just sweet tak best la pulak kan? that'd be boring & meaningless pulak
everytime i like a guy, i would actually pray that if he was the right one, bring him closer to me and if he's not, throw him away haha but seriously tho, so every time this happens, saya reda je cause Allah knows whats best for me kan.
He's saving the best for me, and he knows i deserve so much better than some fuckboi who cant reply a goodnight text.

so here's to better love, better future, to the sweet & sour of life. until next time, my friends.