these past 2 weeks has been emotionally tiring for me, it still is right now. i am on a roller-coaster of emotions and i dont think it has any plan of slowing down or even stop. it's been a while since i've been on this ride, and by a while i mean 3 years to be exact.
i dont like what im feeling right now, i dont like it at all. its like 2014 all over again,
the heartbreaks and painfulness,
all i wanna do is just cuddle up in bed all day and not face the real world.
i've been crying a lot these past few days and it feels odd, i feel out of place, its not a usual thing for me tbh. i dont cry too easily when it comes to boys because i dont want them to have that kind of power over me, but this time, its just so hard to not cry. its so tiring really, i dont wanna face my feelings right now, i just want him back
i couldnt help but to think that maybe its just me who's getting emotional over all of these,
maybe he doesnt even care kan. not even bothered or affected by any of these. probably he just brushes it off and easily move on haih, pathetic

took a 10 minute break just now and im feeling better, a little more calmer than before.
but i'm done for tonight, need to study for my marketing test tomorrow so see ya soon