i think everyone understands how hard it is to love yourself. to feel confident in your own skin, to be able to accept your pimples, your freckles, your stretch marks, your uneven skin tone, your little round nose, your eyebags, your dark circles, you flabby stomach, your non-existent thigh gap, your undone brows and so so much more, all those flaws you see everyday in the mirror. we think that by now we'd get use to them because we see it, everyday, but we're wrong.
the more i stare at them, the more i just hate it. the more i critic the way i look, the more self conscious i get, the more insecure i feel day by day.
loving someone else is so much easier than loving yourself, and why is that? maybe because just like us, we dont see them like how they see themselves. we look past their imperfections, we look at how cute their little round nose is, how those dark circles just shows how hard they're working their butts off. we just love them too much to even notice the physical flaws
but as time goes by, the older i get, the more self loving i am. the more appreciation i have for myself, for the time i spend by myself. as much as i love having accompanies, i love some me time too.
you dont need anyone to define your happiness, you dont need any other human being to make you feel happy. if you dont feel happy when you are on your own, what makes you think these people can feel that hole in your heart.
it is okay to be alone sometimes, it is okay to enjoy solidarity. it is okay do things on your own, it is okay to be independent. make yourself happy first.
make a cup of tea for yourself, read a book, go hiking on your own, go shopping just with yourself, pamper yourself once in a while, kalau nak pamper hari hari pun, there's nothing wrong with that.
love yourself so much to the extend that when you get treated less than that, you will know it, and you cut those people off. you dont deserve those kind treatments, you dont need those kind of energy in your life.
toxic people will only bring you down, they will make you feel less about yourself, they will make you feel unappreciated and girl, no one deserves that.
im not saying its bad to love anyone else, its not bad to fall in love but dont let them be your happiness
because you are your own source of happiness and if you accept that, i can promise you that you will never lose sight of yourself and your own happiness.
out of all people, i know that self loving is not an easy process. it takes A LOT of time, a lot of energy and positive thinking.
and through this process, you will find out the people who are worth keeping in your life and people who you need to cut them off, for good.
and in this process, you will feel all kinds of emotions, you'll feel like you are alone in this world, you'll feel helpless and just lonely. but please, know that it will be very worth it in the end, just hold on, hold on to that little hope you have, please, i beg you.
all the pain and heartbreaks just makes me love & appreciate myself even more, my heart was never closed for love and never will be but at least now i appreciate myself even more, i can see the real people who are worth fighting for, the type people who i want in my life.
i appreciate the skin i am in even more, eventhough not fully comfortable yet, but i'll get there someday. and because of this i never settle for anything less because i know the kind of people i want in my life.
okay i kinda went off from the actual topic i wanted to talk about lmao anyway, self love comes first before the love you have for anyone else. i still struggle to love myself, maybe because we've been taught to always put other people first, to always impress our parents, to always jaga hati orang lain but siapa nak jaga hati kita kan? i guess that's why we need self love, when you love yourself so much, loving & appreciating life itself will flow right through you.
having this deep spiritual connection and a solid relationship with your inner self, will be the best thing you can ever do for yourself. i think thats when the real magic happens.
when you have this deep self appreciation for yourself, the universe just conspires with you and takes you on this self discovering journey, you feel me here? i hope im not talking crap.
the universe can sense the force of attraction in you and give back the love that was really meant for you, automatically you'll attract all the love and good things around you.
good god, i love this.
anyway, i have a test to study now. giving you all positive energy, i hope your days get better, i hope Allah eases your hardships, i hope Allah soothes your pain. better things are yet to come, goodbye for now