so it turns out, getting out of my comfort zone was harder than i thought,
i knew it wasnt going to be an easy work but i also didnt know it'd have to be this great of efforts
and how it made really really uncomfortable,
it also turns out that i needed to be pushed, ive knew this but somehow
this time its like a 100% confirmation of how i really work,
i needed to be motivated (mengada i know) but that's the reality of it,
i need to be push & drag in order to get work done, what a hassle kan.
but nevertheless, it was such an eye opener, of how much i know so little about myself and the world around me itself,
stepping out of my comfort comfort zone was scary as fuck and that was only the beginning, baby steps, heck, they were baby crawls,
but those damn baby crawls were intimidating and i have no idea how am i gonna face those bigger steps, how the hell do i take control of my life when i cant take control of these "baby steps",
slowly but surely i guess, someway somehow i just gotta face it, ceh cakap macam senang,
but really, it takes a lot of courage, a lot of patience, and definitely a lot of willingness,
you gotta let yourself absorb the process itself, you gotta let yourself fall and bleed,
bend but never break, you gotta let yourself experience the pain and the torture, mentally and physically so that you can learn, so that you can grow, so that you can be a better version of yourself
one thing i've learned is that if you want to try something new, if you want to do something you've always dreamed of doing, just START.
there will never be the right time, or at the right place or with the right people,
what you need to do is just start, just do it, you might start with the littlest knowledge,
probably no resources at all, not really knowing what to do at first, maybe a little lost & confused,
but along the way, you'll learn, along the way you'll grow and you'll gain knowledge,
along the way you'll become better at it because my dear, nobody knows what they are doing in the beginning, you'll fall and get hurt but there is nothing wrong with that,
the setbacks you experience is what will shape you into who you are,
might be a rough start but like everything good & worthwhile in the world, it will never be easy,
easy come easy go as they say.
so, take that leap of faith, walk out of those doors you've been hiding behind all these years,
break down all those walls you've build, stop clinging on things & people that are toxic,
its not going to be easy but i promise you its gonna be like a breath of fresh air on a Sunday morning,
a sip of hot tea on a cold day, an ice cold water on a sunny Monday,
stepping out of your comfort zone is gonna be a challenge, its gonna be hell, mentally & physically tiring, but i promise you it will be worth, very very worth it.
as long as you have total faith in what you are doing, as long as you dont listen to what others have to say, this is about you, and that is all that matters, hold on tight on what you believe.
come one, open those doors, its gonna change your life!