January 31, 2018

hold your own heart

i’ve learned the hard way that self love is more than just taking cute selfies & doing you skincare routine,
its more than just feeling good in your favourite outfit or admiring what you see in the mirror,
self love is forgiving yourself for all the bad decisions you've made, for all the wrong people you've let in your life, for all the love you feel you have wasted, for all the sins you have acted on,
self love is letting go of people that only causes you misery, even though their presence is what you crave for the most, letting go of what was in the past, letting go of the things you no longer have control over,
self love is reminding yourself that the people you love & care, might not feel the same way towards you, and that is alright because we cannot force emotions, we cannot force things to happen the way we want it to happen,
self love is perseverance, in what ever you do, because you wholeheartedly believe its the right thing, and you, will always follow your heart, 

self love is taking it one by one, slowly but surely i always say,
take your time & stay on your own pace, if its meant to be, it will be, 
different people walk on different paths and you cannot push yourself onto roads that was never built for you, you cannot pull yourself into spaces that does not synchronizes with your energy,
self love is telling yourself its okay to be weak, its okay to cry & be vulnerable as you can be, 
but know your worth & know when its time to rise up again, 
speak your heart out, be unapologetic of what you feel and how you projectile your love, 
self love is letting yourself heal by itself, not pushing or faking it, allowing yourself to feel what you feel and not denying your emotions, soaking it all in and embracing your own skin,
letting yourself realize that what you feel is valid & no one else can tell you otherwise

self love is more than just hot showers, makeups & spending money on yourself,
its realizing & admitting your own mistakes, self love is self reflecting & self realization,
being open to opinions and criticism because you know you need them to strive in life,
work on yourself to be a better person than you were before, physically & mentally,
self love is allowing yourself to be free as possible, to step out of your comfort zone, to let yourself grow & flourish, even if it means breaking your own heart, because self love is knowing that pain is temporary and you for sure know that better days will come, better things awaits you, better people are just waiting to be presented to you,
self love is self care, hold your own heart because no one else will, believe me, they may say a lot of things & promise you mountains & stars, even the universe itself,
but at the end of the day, you are the one holding yourself all together, you are the one who puts those little pieces of yourself back into places,
you are the one who suffers & heal,
you, you & it always be you,

they might be the cherry on top but god damn, youre the whole sweetass cake my lovelies.