21st

if you asked me 3 years ago where would i see myself at 21, it would be no where near where i am today. the journey to get where i am right now, at this moment, to this day, was fucking crazy. 
most days i just felt like giving up, wanting a simpler life with simpler things and simpler people, 
no complications. but hey, what’s life without any fun kan? (ceh acah je)

but a year ago i would have chose the simpler life, i would have chose the dull & boring over excitement. 

the only time i want & should look back is to see how far i have come, to see how much i have grown, to see how much of an impact i have left.

and boy oh boy, i have come a very very long way. it might be seemed nothing much to some, but to me, where i am today, is a fucking achievement. definitely i have had a lot of help, my source of strength was definitely my papa & mummy, where the fuck would i be without them, definitely no where near where i am today, probably draining myself out at some dreading job just to pay the monthly bills.

anyway moving forward, i have a lot to be thankful for, A LOT. 

i have a hard time expressing my gratitude, i really do, i have an ego higher than the clouds, but i really am grateful for a lot of things, i am grateful to be put in an environment where i have become this person i never knew i could, being put in situations where it has taught me good things are created through hardships and pain,

like i always say, a rainbow after the storm, so in order to grow & glow, i had to go through sufferings, thats just me personally. 

i am also so so sooo thankful for the people that i have in my life, especially my friends, i might fail miserably when it comes to relationships, love & just men in general but subhanAllah i have really really great friends, the type of people that i could just hit up at 4 in the morning and they’d be there for me, i have so many shoulders lent to me, there would be times where it would suddenly hit me hard, of how blessed i am to be surrounded by such amazing human beings with such beautiful beautiful souls, may Allah bless each & every one of you.

so here’s to 21 years of living, and many more years to come insyaAllah!

here’s to the exciting places i have encountered and many more yet to venture on, 
here’s to the beautiful people i have met who has impacted my life positively & to the people i shall meet someday.
here’s to the many more food yet to be discovered! (paling excited for)

here’s for the ups & downs of life, here’s to the loves that have touched me & the heartbreaks that has tore me apart, here’s to the crazy decisions ive made and the spontaneous shits i have done that drove my family crazy and over the edge, 
here’s to the people that has always had my back, through the lows & the highs,

here’s to the future, although i am so fucking scared for the future, for the uncertainties but i am hella excited (am i really tho?)
happy fucking 21st birthday to me! woo hoo bitch