one of the hardest pill to swallow is that you can never receive the amount of love you give,
no matter how much you pour your heart and soul, you will always get a little less,
either in terms of relationship, friendships, family or even your work life,
what you give you can never get back as much as you have gave,
once in a while you might get a little bit more than what you have invested, you're a lucky one if so,
but eventually at the end of the day, thats the reality of life that I still have a hard time absorbing and fully understanding.
I am capable of so much love and affection, be it with my partner, friends, family even with the people I stumble upon every single day,
and most of the time I expect to be returned what I gave, to be treated how I treat them, to be cared how I cared for them, to be loved so immensely like how I love them,
but the truth hits me hard, and I learned my lesson.
its unfair to them for me to expect so much,
different people are wired differently, act differently, love differently and its okay,
it doesn't have to be the reason why I would love any less.
we're merely humans anyway, we bend and break, the way we talk, eat, even the way we breathe is far from similar to each other,
either in terms of relationship, friendships, family or even your work life,
what you give you can never get back as much as you have gave,
once in a while you might get a little bit more than what you have invested, you're a lucky one if so,
but eventually at the end of the day, thats the reality of life that I still have a hard time absorbing and fully understanding.
I am capable of so much love and affection, be it with my partner, friends, family even with the people I stumble upon every single day,
and most of the time I expect to be returned what I gave, to be treated how I treat them, to be cared how I cared for them, to be loved so immensely like how I love them,
but the truth hits me hard, and I learned my lesson.
its unfair to them for me to expect so much,
different people are wired differently, act differently, love differently and its okay,
it doesn't have to be the reason why I would love any less.
we're merely humans anyway, we bend and break, the way we talk, eat, even the way we breathe is far from similar to each other,
a friend of mine once told me, just because my way of showing affection is different from the other person, does not mean he/she loves you any less, they just have a different love rhythm.
it's a concept I still struggle to grasp, its still a new look to me, I have always been this kind of person who tries so hard to show people that I appreciate them, their efforts, their time, I always try very hard to give back the love I received, and maybe pour out a little more, because I have so much love to spare, so much warmth to be shared.
no matter how hard you try to achieve that sense of desire, to fill in that gap,
you can never expect too much of anyone, they really don't owe you anything,
what you can do is staying true to yourself, never differ from the path you hold on to,
"promise that no matter how much pain the world gives you, never give the pain back to anyone" - a quote stumbled upon,
until next time my friends, stay hydrated!